thurs:
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today:
all that i've heard affected my mood today. seriously, i dont feel like going back pri sch but they asked me to so i went. starting, i thought of what had happened at the bus stop & i cried & chan huei & shu ling asked me why i cried. after that better liao. went to ting xin house to watch 'alone', the ghost show. DVD la. chan huei very scared then i still purposely go disturb her then she screamed!. about 4+ , went home.
i wonder is this supposed to be a joyous day? nvm.. seriously, i'm not angry or sad because you cannot pei me home. & the reason for why i dint want you to pei me go bus stop is because i alrdy know my mood liao. though i really wanted you to pei me to bus stop, but i scared will affect you so i dint want you to pei me. but since you insisted, i go-ed. & im not angry cos you insisted. anw, perhaps all this happenings is my fault but i just couldn't help it. yeah, jealousy do kills but i can't help it. & that has made my mood even worst. seriously, truthfully, i dont know im angry or sad. i shouldn't act that i dint cared about you. i know i care & seriously, i do. you cried. at the start, i dint ask for the reason you cried when i should have asked. i walked so fast that we were about 200 m apart. you have been crying since from the staff room til the bus stop. finally, i went in front of you to ask why and tell you not to cry. you turned away. i walk again, you turn again. i walk once, you turn once. i offer you tissue you dont want. try to put in your pocket, you pushed my hand away. i felt helpless. you were crying but i dint know how to catch your tears & stop your crying. i cried. partly also because you cried. you told me my bus come. you told me not to cry. i dint ans you & yet instead, i threw away that packet of tissue. i wished im deaf so i could not listen to what other ppl say & it wont affect me. when it doesnt affect me, it doesnt affect you. deafness.?! aint that good ? im sorry for what happened today. i dont ask for any forgiveness for my temper but i hope you're alright. SORRY!