Hai. Never thought it'd be over like that. Really lost now and don't know what will become of me. Why don't i just get hit by a car or maybe fall off from a flight of stairs and hope i get a serious memory loss so i wont be that miserable, guilt-stricken anymore. I wanna escape from all these. I wanna run away. I cant face it - alone./ I don't know what to do. I've tried. I did not give up but what saddens me is that, it's no use. It's too late. Nothing's gonna be like what it used to ; Never. No matter how hard i try, it's just gonna remain like that. I don't wanna be friends, neither stranger. But i have no choice. It's either this or that;. Many things are beyond my control. But i tried holding back and changing my destiny. All i ask for is a chance. Maybe, i'm just short of opportunities. I'm aat a loss. Probably, the old xiuqian is gone. Never ever gonna be the same again. No happiness, just sadness. All these, i've been through too much. Too much to feel. Just numbness, unfeeling, cold-hearted. As i write and tear, i know very well how much i feel for you. I know it, deep down. No matter how much tears i've cried, facts are just gonna remain like that. But i know those tears have dried, but my heart will never. Goodbye.
I need a little more luck than a little bit. ):
O level results ok but sth is not ok. Haiz.
What can i do to show her that she can trust me again and show her that i really sincerely need her. i duno what to do. i cant contact her ): i know when one stop contacting another, feelings will fade. this is what i used to feel to. but now, different. it's no use. nothing's gonna stop my love for her. every moment seems to last forever when u have found that u lost ur way. she's my light, now that she's gone. i seem to live life aimlessly. parents wan me to study at Millenia Institue but i don wan. But, i dint object to it. hai. i cant sleep at night, always thinking about her. ughhhhhh.
Wah. Leg damn tired. ytd reach home midnight . then i slept at around 1 plus ? Ytd learn to do closing and menu. zzz. today joanne gonna test me. sia la. scared i take wrong order sia ): hmmm. really have been constantly missing and thinking about her. im really not ready to move on and i never will. i really need her. i sincerely need her forgiveness ):
nvm, later need go work at 6.30. zzz. today i do closing with joanne only ): sian.gotta go out at 5. bye :)